Bipolar disorder. Too many unfinished projects.

You all know what I mean when I say “I’ve got a shedload of unfinished projects”! Why can’t I ever finish what I’ve started? Why is it that one minute I’m so enthusiastic about something, and put all my energy into it, then the next minute I’m bored and it never gets finished?

This morning I sat and thought about all the things I’ve started but never finished. Is it because I just get bored easily, or is it that I’m thinking to far ahead? It seems that I have a brilliant idea, so I go steaming into it 100 mph. Then I think of something else that seems even better than the first idea, so the first one gets left unfinished! Does this sound familiar with you?

I’ve spent so much money in the past on stupid things e.g. game apps on my iPad. I’ve built up these games for around two weeks by spending money on perks. The games had to be the best that they could be, then I would just deleted it because I got bored.

I’ve done things like this for as long as I can remember. No matter what I decide to do, I always seem to end up getting bored with it, then going onto something else. In 2016 I wrote my book. The only reason that was finished is because I was having a manic episode, the book was written and self published within around three weeks! No wonder the first edition had so many errors in it, lol. I never liked writing, I would normally get bored after writing just a couple of pages. Although manic episodes can get you in deep shit, they can be useful sometimes.

I’ve got a second unfinished book that I was writing, but got bored writing that! I’ve now been blogging for around a month, and I ask myself how long is this going to last? Well the answer to that is..”how long is a piece of string”? I started with the free WordPress website, then a couple of days later, I upgraded to the “blogger plan”. Then a couple of days after that it was the “premium plan”. The blogger plan was fine, I didn’t need to upgrade!. Next it will be the “e-commerce plan”, that I don’t need or I can’t really afford, lol.

Theres my “bipolar mentorship program” though that has helped one person at the moment, and as long as it’s helping people, I’m hoping I won’t get bored with that. There’s this new “keep fit group”, one person is interested at the moment, but I’ll probably give that up if no one else is interested, lol. In the past there’s been so many more little projects I’ve started, that either never took off, or I’ve got bored with them.

I seem to have no patience with anything. It needs to be done and finished now, not later or tomorrow! They say “Rome wasn’t built in a day”! Well let me tell you something, if I was around in the Roman period, and they gave me the project to build Rome, it would have either never been finished, or it would have been built in a couple of hours, depending on if I got bored or not, lol. My dad was the same, so could I be like this because it’s in my genes, or is it bipolar, or a bit of both?. I suppose we can always blame it on our condition.

I’m sitting here wondering what my next project will be? Maybe I’ll become an astronaut and build a rocket out of toilet rolls, and fly to the moon? But that idea will probably never “take off” either! 🚀😩😂

20 thoughts on “Bipolar disorder. Too many unfinished projects.

        • That’s true. You will have to let me know what you want to achieve. Do you just want to do walks, or do you want to start running? Plus some of your fitness background? 😊👍

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          • Well walking is good for me. I don’t run – I have an old ankle injury from playing sports when I was younger, but I do swim laps at the pool 3 or 4 times a week. I really enjoy walking though – I have a nice lake right by my house. It’s about 1.5 miles (2.5kms) to walk around it, and if the weather is nice, I will go twice a day. But I try to walk around the lake at least once a day.

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          • That’s great 👍 if we get a few more involved in this group, then maybe we can set a weekly goal to achieve for the complete beginners. I know some people may not of done any waking for a while, so they will have to learn to walk again 😊👍

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          • Jen, so what do you want to achieve from this group? Apart from it helping with your mental health, do you want to get fitter in the process? If so you might want to add a little bit of distance to your walk, or speed the walk up a bit. We can do this with little increases each week, until we reach say…5k brisk walks 3/4 times a week. This is just an example, let me know your thoughts on this 😊👍

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          • My apologies – I was dealing with some family issues the last few days. Well, my goal I guess would be to have some motivation to ensure I get out and walk every day. I seem to go in spurts; I get out and walk everyday for a few weeks, then for some reason I can’t find motivation. So I guess my main goal would be motivation and being accountable to other people. 🙂

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          • No need to apologise Jen. We all have other commitments outside of blogging, I just hope everything is ok with you? Motivation is all part of this group, I’m hoping we can motivate one another 😊👍

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          • Yup a lot of stuff is coming up – it’s good though. My life is changing in some very significant and amazing ways. All I need to do is not let the fear ‘boogers’ take over. Lots of big shifts and changes right now. I think all of my hard work over the last few years is beginning to pay off! 🙂

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  1. I’m like you. I take lots of different classes and most of the time I end up quitting if I show up at all. I’ll get bored or think something’s too hard but I won’t keep at it. It seems like a good idea when I signed up but then…nothing

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